Learning at home is hard. Learning highly technical skills is even harder. But you can do this, I have all the confidence in your abilities. If you wonder why will I always push you, and expect nothing but your absolute best, this video best summarizes how I feel (one small swear word aside..lol)
I also subscribe to the no-cliques, be the the best you theory as well (never compromise your inner you for some sort of outer falsehood). This Apple ad from 1997 is an excellent summary of that viewpoint as well.
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